Greetings and Happy Friday everyone! My mom arrived in Minneapolis last night and we flew out to Charlotte. Our mission is to find an apartment for me to rent. Shortly after I came to terms with the fact that I would in fact have to move to Charlotte, I realized that the person I really wanted to come with me on this apartment-hunting trip was my mom. I know I am 32 and can make decisions on my own, as I have for the 14 years since I graduated from high school and became an independent person. BUT sometimes- you just need your mom.
I think to some extent, my parents (and other key people in my life) have felt a bit helpless as they've watched me go through this experience. My parents have been on the receiving end of many, many tearful conversations and I think they probably feel a little frustrated that besides offering a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on, they can't DO anything. But accompanying me on this trip to Charlotte is something my mom CAN do. She can come to Charlotte with me and help me decide what apartment I will call home. And there was not a moment of hesitation when I called her and asked her if she would consider coming with me.
Through this process, I have been downright negative about Charlotte and I am hoping that I can start to turn the corner this weekend and find some things to get excited about. I hope that I find coffee shops that I can see myself reading in on the weekend and running paths that I can see myself training on during marathon training season. I hope I find an apartment I will be happy to call home that will be walking or biking distance from work and I hope that my neighborhood feels somewhat as 'right' as my current neighborhood does.
I know that Charlotte will never be Minneapolis. And I have to accept that. But I am hoping to find some redeeming qualities when I visit Charlotte this week. At the end of the weekend, I hope I come back to Minneapolis and find myself closer to a state of mind where I don't tear up when people call and ask me how I feel about my move to Charlotte.